sooo sooo... uhhm. ive started reading the book that i borrowed sam, the chronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe. man, it's just amazing! i swear. haha. it's like the movie itself, so you can imagine how it looks like. haha. anyway, all the while, i thought the name of the faun is mr thomas, turns out it's mr tumnus. haha. weirddd. haha. and darn it, edmund is even meaner on the book compared to the movie. hahaa. i wanna see how samuel portayed it before when he played edmund in narnia >:) the bad roles are bagay to twin. >:) haha. >:) agree?

anyway, im bored. i woke up early, like 9:30. darn it. ive read three chapters already last night. i dont wanna finish the book this early!!!! haha.


edit: HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND DHELCEE. IN A FEW MINUTES TIME, YOULL BE A YEAR OLDER. HAHA. dont forget my billabong when you go here sa pinas >:) haha.

as planned, we went to club o. i met up with joni outside my village. then headed to mcdo quezon avenue. met up with sina jelz and cielo. then took the cab to abs. when we got there, i texted tita gene and she said to text tito ray instead since she didnt go. then tito raymund said to go straight to club o. when we got there, there were only a few people. some press and stuff. saw sam and kuya christian immediately. but sam was in deep conversation with the press people thats why we went to tito raymund's place instead. he was alone and very busy playing PSP. haha. so we went to the seats near the bar table. we were infront of the table where kuya ian and samuel were interviewed. okay, we just talked. then ada came. uuhhhm. after a couple of minutes, sam went to us. he handed me his things since he couldnt see tito. he handed me the video cam, book and the HSM cd. amp, im wondering why those stuff were with him and not with his dad. haha. okay, after a while, someone from STAGES (forgot her name, sorry ate) handed us the food stubs. then kuya oliver went to us and told us to eat na. he asked for the cd and asked me what song to play. i had no idea so i said maybe the gethca head thing and he said no, cause tippy and sam will sing together. haha. so i said maybe breaking free or start of something new. anyway, we went to our table, beside the table of sina tito ray, tita happy and tippy. then we saw daryl came. then sam and tippy sang. darn it. it's a must watch. they sounded soooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking great. i love their performance. then after that, we ate. after we finished eating, tito raymund called me to ask stuff. we were online using tippy's laptop. he checked the site and the forum. haha. tippy joined in the conversation every once in a while. then tito asked me to go to Y!M and check who are online. twas only chir,jeff and gio. so i chatted with them, and some his and hellos from tito. basically, i was typing the whole time in Y!M. haha. kakahiya naman kay tippy, i was using her laptop. but she's soooo soooo nice. i swear. and tita happy too. sina jelz and sina cielo transferred to the table behind us with sina tito david. tito raymund went out to smoke, so sam took his dad's seat beside me. i asked him to say hi naman to sina chir and jeff, and he only typed "hi". haha. i said "how would they even know that it was you who typed???" and he just said "sabi mo hi e". okay, whatever. he typed na his name. hahaha. ayun, tita happy offered me a candy thing, i refused at first because i was soooo nahihiya, but then she insisted. thank you tita happy. then i gave the candy to sam. then tippy said "it tastes like sunblock right?" haha. kakaaliw sina tippy and tita happy, they were like bestfriends. :)) haha. anyway, i asked sam nga pala if i can borrow his book, narnia. ive posted here before that i love narnia the movie. i wanna read the book. haha. he said he had it when he was still young. okay, thanks sam for lending me the book. i have something to be occupied with this summer. then ayun, talk ang talk lang. tippy's meeting someone powerful in abs. she's really soooo pretty. i swear. and nice too. then we went paikot ikot sa club o. kung saan saan lang. then we went home. sam has this parang dubbing for beck. haha. actually, before tito raymund said na meron syang thing for beck, sam just told me that he havent dubbed any scenes yet from beck. haha. :)) anyway, that was practically what happened a while ago. :)

some pictures are in my multiply click HERE

this post is gonna be long. trust me :))
last night, my family went to MOA. my mom bought her stuff like shoes, shirt and etc. i want to buy dupe slippers arggh. i was supposed to buy a shirt, but i told them to just give me the money so that i will have money on wednesday. Sam Concepcion, together with sina kuya ian and raymond S. will be having a presscon in club o this wednesday kasi e, it's a lunch thing so i hope my mom wont forget giving me the money :| uuhmm, after that, we went to bluewave. fuck, i didnt enjoy the live band. the theme that night was RETRO. im sooo not into retro music and the singer was in elvis attire. and the songs were sucky, 90% of those songs, i dont know. haha. i was practically bored the whole time. i just contented myself eating pizza. i love green mango shake in plato platina. haha. i wasnt able to satisfy my cravings for starbucks since i drank green mango shake. baka maupset ang tyan ko, mahirap na. haha. then while on our way home, dad asked if we want to go to McDo pa, we were so full but then we still went to mcdo, e pinark na e sasakyan e, wala na magagawa. haha. they had milkshake while i ate fries. i was soo sooo full that night. haha. ayun lang

anyway, since i miss miss miss miss the barkada, im reminiscing the good days we have had. complete, or partially complete, or not complete at all, we always make it a point to enjoy ourselves. sorry, being sentimental. haha maybe that's what the effect of summer on my part, because it was summer time when i met them. :)


{me,sam&jelz} my favorite event so far. this was in ateneo. we really had fun goofing around and bullying each other. that was the first time we met steph and graziella. they were so nice.


{me,jelz&sam} haha. oo kami na naman magkakasama :)) this was in makati med naman, same day as the ateneo event. i LOVE what happened here. someone very special to me was present. the kids really made me feel guilty of all my katarantaduhan. i know that we made those kids with cancer, so happy. especially sam, since extra lang kami. haha.


{graziella,sam,jelz&me} this was taken inside the cr/stockroom of STAGES in greenbelt mansion. we were fixing ourselves before going to ateneo :)


{ronald,jelz,me&rayka} we were waiting for joni's party to start. i missed them so much since i havent seen them for eternity.


{ronald,jelz,lolo,sam,me,cielo,rayka,chir} joni's 18th birthday. thanks kevin for taking this picture. sina tita gene and co. surprised joni. haha. i will not forget the terror(in a good way) on her face when she saw them with jelz and i at the front door. haha


{sam,rayka&me} in casino filipino. haha. we had fun chatting and discussing things on the tarpoline(sp?). we didnt make sense at all. :)) but fun. :)


{jelz,cielo,joni,lolo,chir,gio,sam,mr d,rayka&me} my first time hanging out with them in shangrila. met amiela there ;)


{sam,me&jelz} i look stupid in this picture. haha. powerstation in shang. hahaha. we played arcade. thank you sam for the load. haha. even if you lost in tekken >:)


{rayka,sam&me} i can say, this was the first time i really got comfortable with goofing and talking. haha. first time i talked that long. as in LONNNNGGGGGG. haha. thank you rayka and sam for listening to my blabbing and stuff :)) haha. dang rayka, you were late.


{me,sam,gabby,rayka&joni} rayka's 18th birthday in t-bar greenbelt. ahah. night was really fun. i ate a lot. fufu ni rayka, she said before na wala daw masyadong food since cocktail party daw. haha.


{sam,me&gabby} haha. sam was singing while i was taking advantage of his PSP. haha. i dunno how to use it (oo na, orc na ako) so gabby taught me how. :)


{me&tita gene} this was taken in liyimen during sam and kuya ian's birthday celeb. i love tita gene :)


{me,chir,jelz&sam} cerisse's 16th birthday at her house. i was so full. sarap ng ref cake ni cielo. haha.


{sam,jackie&me} at enchanted kingdom. the reason why i like this picture is that sam looks bungal >:) >:) agree?


{me,jelz&sam} taken in ATC during crushie's birthday. she treat us in CPK. haha. then we rode with sam's van going to glorietta. talked to kuya christian bautista over the phone. he sang happy birthday to jelz :)) fun night, i swear.


{sam,rayka,me,andy,dave,mr d&thian} somewhere along the street of makati. we just had dinner and ready to go home. :)


{me,sam&rayka} i cant remember if this was in STAGES or in Greenbelt na. haha. the time where the term trio emerged, i think. anyway, funny trivia: rayka and i were not supposed to be there in STAGES for the launching. we just made epal >:) hahaha >:) while they were presenting, rayka and i were chilling beside the aircon. and sam was taking pictures using a prof camera. wth. i hope he deleted those. :|


{sam,jelz&me} inside coffeebeans and tealeaf. whew! after the long and tiring concert, we had time to relax inside the coffee shop. a breathe of fresh air.


{me,tito raymund&joni} in mall of asia for the birthday concert. haha funny, i wasnt supposed to be in the picture, umepal lang ako talaga. haha >:)


{jelz,cielo,me,sam&joni} haha. diba dapat si kuya christian ang ka back-to-back ni sam dito? haha. joni, san ka naman nakatingin? :))


{amiela&me} MOA. do i really need to elaborate while i miss this moment? >:)



hahaha. ang haba ng entry ko amp

shit, we were supposed to go to bluewave but due to my freakin brother, we didnt. im craving for starbs pa naman. and what was even more shittier is that i cant sign in to multiply. it always displays error. fuck

i dont know how can you still be so sweet. are you playing once again because you know i cant resist? it's way, way too much. show what you really like. :|

The feeling seems to grow everytime and yet, the more it does, the more painful it gets. I can’t believe how the irony of love and the vividness of its definition can hit a person like a fast bellowed bullet. Sometimes, I tend to treasure all the fun experiences, but remembering them makes me want to break down and cry. They make me hold on, and that’s what pains me the most. Sticking up is rather a painful choice when you don’t know if that person will stick up with you too. I tend to raucously scream at night because your face appears everytime I go to bed and because of that, it makes my sullen eyes cry once again. I have feelings too, you know? I’m not one of your toys that you will pick-up everytime you want somebody to play with. I get tired too, matter of fact, I am tired now. How come you still treat me like a fool that you can hold my neck and meddle around your fingers like a puppet that follows every command you make? You only see me when you don’t have anybody around, and you know what’s painful with that? It’s because I see you everywhere I look and not just when anybody isn’t around. I want you to liaise with me just for a second everyday and hear my vehement cry for you. Memories bring back all the joy you’ve caused me, and yet, it gives me a painful stab in the heart because they make me realize that they won’t happen again. I’ve always been stringent with your passion, never a second that you slipped my mind. All I want to do is let you go, not because you’re mine, but because you still live inside of me. I want to start a new life without you, but how can that be possible when I still read your chapter in my life? I now believe that, sometimes, goodbye is the most painful way of saying I love you.

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^^ i swear that is random..

we almost made it..

okay. i woke up around 8am. got online. then i went to school to enroll. i was picked up a little early. fuck my school. they made our batch and the next batch enroll on the same day. the lines on different areas were so long. shit. i went to the things that needed to be done. shit, i was so tired and i havent enrolled yet around 12pm. so i waited for melissa, after a long time, we patched things up since we had some misunderstandings this term. we had a great time catching up. We went to the dean's office to get different things. aarrgghh. and then we fell in line thrice to different areas. shit talaga. we were so freaking tired after. i had no sundo going home so we decided to go to glorietta first to eat at dads since we were all so hungry. we rode in pao's car. f* ang init sobra since he has leather seats. but it didnt take long before it cooled down. anyway, when we got to glorietta, we ate in dads. buffet. i ate a lot. melissa and i were so full that we couldnt breathe properly after eating. haha. then went home. :)

dont ever for a second doubt upon the will of GOD. he has a reason for everything. never question his power and never question your faith. He wont give you things that are above your strength. hang on to him.

i lay my back on the beige, cold wall
seeing the gutter outside as you walk out of my door
watching yellow birds as they fly in the sky
since i cannot follow you, i just break down and cry
i wanna die in your arms and not let go of your grip
but all i can do is sob and watch you go and drift
i cry and cry until my eyes bleed
when a little bit of your love is all that i ever need
i just want you to wake up from your deep, peaceful sleep
to see me beg for you, and see the dreams i keep
i dont know what to do anymore so watch the blood flow from my wrist
you wretched me so hard, i wanna pounce you with my fist
let me sleep now cause im tired with eternity
let me sleep now to look for my serenity

then i died..

so, officially, i was shocked this morning. and still shocked. oo na, OA na, bakit ba. haha

while i was surfing the net, i received a text message from tito david. he said "david cosico of stages here. Proj:FASTFOOD vtr this afternoon. 1:30-5pm at *(dunno if i can post the whole location)* san antonio village makati city. Caster's name is MARIE. Looking for 2 college student types: a 23 year old mid-college student and an 18 year old ma-chica, kulit type. casual attire. can you make it? please acknowledge. thank you.


whoah. nawindang ako i swear. haha. upto now. oo na. exagge na kung exagge. haha. eeeh. basta.
my two selves are battling
my provocative self: "go! there's no harm in trying. malay mo, you'll earn cash pa if god permits."
my simple, abnormal self: "how will you go there? your brother's not here to drive for you. you will look wasted if you will commute. and no one will accompany you."

okay. so that was my dilemma. haha. i texted na that i cant make it. yep, i want to, but i cant due to some weird reasons. hehe. sana meron pang next time, if ever. :) but i was thankful for considering me. :)

OMG. OMG. AHAHAHA. exam week is over. hahahaa. i hope i will pass everything. :)) omg. bakasyon na!!!! the moment ive been waiting for. it feels so good. hahahaah. 1 month din to since my school is freaking quarterm. classes will start april. shit right? while everybody's still going to the beaches and stuff, ill be configuring cisco back in school. haha. anyway, savor the good times while it still lasts. haha

anyway, ill go later to school to pass thesis portfolio. hay. last na to. haha.

okay, my mom, two brothers and i went to bluewave last night. my brother drove for us since my dad was at his friend's birthday. we watched live bands. the first band we saw weas really great, the female vocalist was really one of the best singers i heard. her high notes were very much defined. anyway, i was so full, i ate 4 slices of pizza, a large hotshots and a large pepsi. haha. i couldnt finish my Starbucks after, took me a while before i was able to finish it. hahaha. got home midnight.
anyway, my dad nearly got into an accident. while he was on his way home, specifically in coastal road express way, the back tire of the pajero exploded. and he was driving so fast since he was on the express way and so were the other cars around him. Thank God, nothing happened to him. it was a near miss, cause he said if it was the front tire that exploded, it may have cost him his life. Thank the Lord.

well anyway, it's gonna be my final exams week next week. Lord, help me please. i dont wanna fail anything. haha. who does? haha.

EDITED: haha. this is edited, i accidentally typed 'were' instead of 'was' and 'are' instead of 'were' ahaha. labo.

uuhhm. anyway, ive always like this song. kelly clarkson is my favorite among all the idol winners. she's so darn great.

because of you

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

uhhm, where would i begin?
yesterday, tita gene texted me that theyre gonna be in SM bacoor today for hero thing. after i came from school, i just got online and prepared myself to go to SM bacoor to see my friends again. it has been a long time since we last saw each other and i kinda miss them lang. since the mall is just in-front of the village, i decided to go. when i got there, i saw joni and andy immediately. we waited for sina tito david outside the backstage. then sam and tito david came na din. we were still outside while sam was having some things inside. tito david introduced us to the PR of hero tv. actually, he introduced us to a lot of people there. i forgot all their names but i very much appreciated their kindness towards us. after a while, they invited us to go to the backstage room. sam was there and a couple of people. he was listening to somebody else's ipod to hear the song he's gonna sing. after that, we just kwento kwento and stuff. we were just left there, the four of us, andy, me, joni and sam. salita salita lang about anything. sam opened up about PBB, i asked who his bet is, and he said casper. as far as i know, although im not a PBB fanatic, i know there isnt any casper in the house. haha. so i just said "whatever". haha. wala naman talaga diba? or maybe di pa nakakapasok. ok. then whatelse? video blog. he had a lot of bloopers. haha. cielo wasnt able to talk to sam properly because he had lots of errands there. uuhhhm whatelse pa ba? the stuff there, especially the guy staff, always go inside to offer us food. haha. bait nila. then he asked if it is okay if our(meaning the four of us) moments there in the backstage will be videotaped and will be shown in hero tv. e we couldnt say no. haha. so i just turned my back and wave sa camera. i dont wanna appear sa tv e. haha. my back was very much present though, i just pretended to talk to joni and sam. i missed tita gene's call twice. i just texted her saying that i am with sam at the backstage. siguro kasi she was wondering where i was that moment. haaha. then ayun. there comes cinema one naman, good thing sam lang yun. uhhhm, after that, it was his turn to perform. ayun, chaotic ang scene. crowd was great. they really cheered for sam. then we got into the backstage again, konting kwento lang and picture picture. andun na din sina tito raymund and tita gene. then we went out. sam remained sa loob because he couldnt go out because people piled up sa labas. haha. it took him some time to finally get out there. haha. tito raymund, andy, joni, me, tita, ada and madz waited outside. haha. there was this ale who was asking us for help. we said we dont have money so tito raymund and i pointed at andy and told the ale to ask money from andy. hahaha. then ayun, went outside, waited for them. then they went home. there was this old weird guy who talked to me and said weird but flattering stuff about me. ahha. ano ba yun. anyway, dave arrived. anong oras na!!! haha. we stayed outside mcdo. and then treat nya kami ng float. haha. then kwento and stuff. then i went home :)






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today was a super tiring day. good thing we have a defense, may sundo ako. haha. anyway, since walang sticker ung crv, we were nervous kasi bawal magpark if you dont have any car stickers. good thing though,when we entered the school's parking lot, the guard was busy talking. haha. swerte. anyway, we had cisco defense, which we got screwed up a little and thesis defense which we screwed up the docu. haha. i was able to answer all queries, the problem was that, we werent able to include it in te documentation. fuck. revision of chapter 1. pero sige fine fine.

wow wow wow. my god. today is march 9. march 9. exactly a year older when i first laid out my eyes on who i consider my bestest friends. ahaha. it's our anniversary today. haha. march 9, 2006 i met and had dinner with sina sam, kev, gab, tita gene, tito ray, red, tito david, andy, mr d, rain, joni, crushie, lolo, cielo (baka may nakalimutan ako?) whoah. astig. 1 year of friendship with laughters and tears. with happiness and disappointments, trust me, we experienced them all.

and so, what a better way to celebrate this day? lets just say, a social suicide. haha. later, im going to have my defense for the case study in cisco. goodness grace, hirap na hirap ako sa cisco. haha and i have to be on a formal attire. with tie. amp and then in the afternoon, im gonna have my thesis defense. FUCK!! pressured na pressured na ako!!! lord, help me please. this is the make or break of my entire career. omg. i need prayers.haha. pray for me guys :))

stop being sweet just because you know i cant resist.
stop it, for when it's gone, the pain it'll cause will be unbearable. :(

heard a great song somewhere. haha. >:)
lovin' these lines

"Oh how I wish to be a star
Shining down and never will apart
It's just a dream I see of you and me
And I hope it will come true "

>:)

let's encrypt a friend's name to uhhhm, anonymous (bravo, how creative. duh)
hahaa
anyway
i feel slightly sorry for anonymous. i think anonymous is going through something hard and painful right now, and we can do nothing about it. well, i wish you good things. need me whenever, just a call away. as if. haha. ayun eat well. maayos din yan. :))

HAAAAY. wasnt able to go online last night. my broadband was busted again. kainis.
anyway, kwento muna about yesterday

went to school. friday is always commute day. dad dropped me off somewhere and then took the cab to school. super traffic talaga, the meter shed our pockets off a hundred and 5 pesos. good thing a friend was with me to share my bill. haha we were so nervous because we arrived 9:40. haha turned out our professor didnt show up again. fuck. he shouldve told us he's not coming. aga aga ko pa naman gumising!!!! haha. and i was so nervous because i thought we were going to have our exam in network management. turned out it was moved on monday. yey! so what did i go to school for? sadly nothing. haha. my friends and i went to jollibee to eat. we all wanted mcdo but it's a little farther that jollibee and all of our lazy asses didnt want to walk. haha. then headed back to school. then went to the binding store to have our 4 thesis document ring binded. then passed the papers and then went home. went home early haha. stig. late afternoon, my family went to SM. i paid the bills and then bought shoes for my defense next friday(god, help me please. no revisions) haha. then ate. then my mom bought my little brother an MP4 player. wtf? i dont even have an mp3 player. haha. i play music on my fone lang. haha. kainis. :))

today, i was picked up late :| then when we arrived in school, the supposedly written exam was turned into a practical exam. shittt. haha. not at all prepared. then the take home exam, i made it in the open lab the same hour. haha. rushed things out. fixed some programming in UNIX. i regret taking that subject. i hardly learned anything to this point. haha. then rushed through the parking lot. hot nga sandalan. decided to go to MOA. haha. starving na ako e, so i ordered a chicago stuffed pizza. (oo na, malaki na yun, matakaw na ako!) i was so full after. haha. then went strolled around. went to all flip flops. haha. havaianas is cool, but i wont shed my 800 hard saved money. haha. donations are highly appreciated though :)) haha. then went to surfers world. f* i want a ripcurl slippers. haha. i was just saying i wont shed 800 for havaianas but now im willing to spend 950 for ripcurl. how ironic. haha. basta ang cute e. too bad, bum ako talaga nowadays. then went to philippine airlines to get something. ahah. saw Gloria Arroyo's car and lots of convoys. super dami talaga. haha then, the guards kept on suing us, saying na bawal mag park dun. kainis! haha. then went home na talaga. i called globe broadband a lot of times, and only on my 50th attempt did it actually work. tell me how pathetic is that? haha. yun lang muna. LANG e no, e ang haba na :))