i did something stupid. fuck. of all the people, why did i say it to her?
this is how it went. not exactly the same words used.

her: he's online :x
me: great. go and flirt with him
her: :|
me: i mean talk with him, not flirt with him. i suddenly typed that.
her: that is so mean
me: i know it's mean.
her: hell yeah
me: but you started it
her: me? how come? :|
me: why should i know that someone's online and you even put :x on it
her: and so? whats the matter with that?
me: god. be sensitive


im such a lame bitch. this is me, completely eaten by the so called insecurity.
i used to be so secure, but all of a sudden, just because of her, my defenses were melted. but i cant help it. i was hurt. i know it wasnt her intention to do so, but since im a jerk, i bit the temptation.

anyone, do me a favor. kill me please.

i need my friends now. but they arent around. f* this world.