arrggh. still posting via school's internet. condition at home got worst. monitor busted, fone line/broadband line got grounded. we'll still have it checked by the electrician. i know it'll take time. and it sucks. well, night time wasnt really boring. i watched again movies and some documentaries on local channels. i love 'em, i mean the documentaries.

anyway, about the tension going on between friends, i still dont find myself regretting the things i did. i remember a friend saying "ano nalang iisipin ni ganito ganyan...".. fuck, should i consider first what other people's reaction would be if they hear it rather than showing off my REAL emotions? sorry, di ko kailangan magbait-baitan sa harap ng ibang tao.. this is me. i show myself. i do not conceal my true personality. if im mad, i consider my feelings first before other people, because it is my emotions theyre playing at. i dont need to be angel-like infront of the people close to my heart. i dont feel the need to please anybody. so sorry for that. and besides, it wasnt only me who has something to say to that person. the only problem was, i was the only one who had the courage to voice it out. you want me to name names? nah, i never do that. the only matter is, i can say it and they cant. better say it than say that i backbite. you guys know me, im as brutally honest as possible.

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i found im scared to know im always on your mind